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I know it for sure when the study mood hits in. It's a fact that my mind wanders a lot, I dream a lot and think about the the future when what's in the present hasn't been settled yet.

Then one day I wake up with a dead sense of calm, and I know that it is time for me to wake up. My mind works faster, and my absorbtion of information increases significantly. I'm not saying I'm some sort of superhero. I'm just impressed at the way my body and mind responds almost on instinct as if it had always a life of its own - just lying dormant until the time draws near. The subconscious, maybe? Whatever it is, there is this underlying sense of thrill as the deadlines draw near, and some part of me wants to rise up to accept this challenge, to push my own boundaries. I'm inherrently competitive against myself. Maybe that's why I hope to continue in academia - it offers me a satisfaction that I don't think I can get anywhere else for now.

Once all this is over, I'm going to take a damn good break.