4 posts tagged “friends”
... Or what is left of it.
Right now, I'm sitting in the school library while waiting for the girlfriend to finish with her research meeting. Realised that I haven't blogged for a damn long while over here and here I am.
Just before this, I was reading GURPS Mysteries, which I happily printed from PDF in the library (saves me so much cost as compared to the paid version.) Yes - Pirate. I know. What really caught my eye was that the writer of the sourcebook actually worked as a criminal defense attorney before she entered into the gaming industry. I mean, how cool is that, to write an RPG book on the sideline based on something that you have passion and the knowledge for? I wish I could do something like that.
Being in Singapore, the big issue has always been the conflict between passion and stablity. It's one of those long standing debates that Andy and I have spent countless hours talking about during our meetups. So I guess it dawned upon me that I should really aim to focus on what I am interested in. The rest will fall into place. I love linguistics, and I intend to dabble in it for a long while, hopefully forever. Who knows - maybe one day I will be writing a book for GURPS - Languages.
Welcome to my geek world.
Fantastic game, with the whole dark and gritty feel of the war. The minute the first scenario started, I realised that I had to storm the beach of Normandy, a scenario Andy and myself knew only too well from our Memoir '44 games. True enough, the bloodbath happened, although I made it up the banks to complete the mission.
Good shit
With the lovely gf and two other friends whom I've been attending classes with for the past couple of years. Must say that it was fun to cycle around Pasir Ris Park for a while, and while I was worried that my back would just start acting up again, thank goodness it didnt. It's nice to have friends you can have fun with, and this is coming from someone like me who never felt that it was important to keep long term relationships with people. I think I'm going to have to change my mind.
So now I'm ready to study for the exams.
You know how problems all start to hit you at around the same time? Yeah it is the same here for me, just that it has much to do with people's problems hitting me at the same time.
I'm used to being the aunt-agony, and I really don't mind being there for my friends. However when it reaches a point whereby everyone's problems start to resemble a pattern, then I think that there is something to be said about that. I've noticed that a couple of close friends have started developing what I call as "questions about their own identity". Indeed, they are tortured, and confused as to who they really are, whether what they believe in still holds true, and whether what they want is where they are heading towards. A grueling and painful process, but I somehow feel that it will come to you sooner or later. It's part of growing, like how a butterfly gains its wings. And there are some things that you'll have to come to terms with within yourself.
However that doesn't mean that one should keep things within. As I mentioned to Stella a couple of nights back, telling your problem to someone, or putting it down in words, gives physical shape to the problem which would otherwise prove elusive if one just broods over it. Call it the power of linguistics and language or whatever, but that's the fact of the matter. And once you are able to see this problem in front of you, can you begin looking at it and thinking about how you would want to make sense of it. Therefore write it down, talk to someone, pray, or do whatever it takes, but try not to keep it within yourself. Being one who keeps things inside when I'm down, I know how it doesn't work, and over the years I've learnt to open up to those who don't judge and I can trust.
May you find yours too.
