Hey I'm learning

I think I need to constantly remind myself not to be too result focused in life, in everything that I do. More often than not, I always get drawn into the mindset that just because I spent most of my time working on some shit-assed project or some mind boggling question in the tutorial sheet, it should translate to good grades at the end of the semester. Law of social transaction.

I keep forgetting that there's always the intangible - the pride in doing something that no one else can achieve, the sense of accomplishment, and most importantly, the learning journey. Perhaps that in itself can already satisfy the other end of the effort-result equation. I ought to learn to focus on that more rather than get drawn into the net of the system. While pragmatic and efficient, I personally it turns us into ugly ugly people who begin to lose focus of who we really are. One day we're going to look back and regret, and I don't wanna do that.